I'm looking through the archives and found this post from June 28, 2007 (a few weeks after opening this forum). I think it demonstrates where I was coming from at that time. Look at the hyper-enthusiastic language:
Originally Posted by Richard Amiel McGough
Praise Be to God Almighty, who has opened our eyes to see the wonders of His Holy Word! I now see how subjective religion really is. Why was I so thrilled? Because I had found another alphabetic pattern in the Bible. I attributed my discovery to God and thought he had opened my eyes to see it. But such patterns are studied every day by unbelieving scholars. It's basically just a chiastic structure which is very common in the Bible. Modern scholars understand them as having been deliberately designed by the Hebrew scribes, and I can't see any reason to reject that assumption. So why my overblown enthusiasm? Because I attributed the work of men to God. I thought it confirmed all my beliefs about God and the Bible.
The ways of God are wonderful beyond description! I am utterly astounded. He knocked my socks off today! Praise His Holy Name!"
And now I see why so few serious thinkers ever responded to my work. It is filled with overblown enthusiasm. Pages filled with bold italics and many exclamations!!! I was bursting with religious fervor that probably looked more like a fever to most people.
Reviewing my old writings is very enlightening.