Going on two years (March 19, 2010) since the inception of my blog God and Butterfly, its title has once again taken on new meaning. As a caterpillar goes through metamorphosis to become a soaring butterfly, so my perception of god has gone through many transformations and has soared to places that are quite different then where I was at two years ago. Two years ago, unbeknownst to me, I was just at the beginning of what was to become an exodus out of the Christian faith, like a metamorphosis from a caterpillar to a butterfly. Even though I didn’t know it at the time the single most important step I took to begin this journey was that of opening my mind to look at whatever I happened upon in my search for truth and I was most interested in finding out how the Bible Wheel came to be. Having been in the Christian faith for nearly 30 years I was an unlikely candidate for de-conversion, yet that is exactly what happened in a much unexpected way. Two years ago, I was at a very solid place in my Christian faith, especially with the evidence of the Bible Wheel giving strong support to my belief. I had no clue at the time that the very thing that seemed to be the capstone of proof for the validity of the Bible being the 'Word of God', ended up being that which began the journey that would lead me to where I am today…outside of the Christian faith. I have come to fully realize that any religion that denies a person the right to follow their own heart and to fully experience what it is to be a human in this life, cannot be true.
A year ago I reported in my First Annual Progress Report that I had come to the place in my quest for truth where the Bible was dead and buried as far as being a text revealing the nature of the creator god, this I called the first leg of my journey. Now, I am a year into the second part of that trek and have once again gone through a tremendous amount of change in my perception of what makes up the Whole of our existence. The term 'God' has taken on a much more generic meaning in my mind, compared to the specific reference it implied two years ago. I now view 'God' as a term associated with the whole of universal consciousness that each of us is a part of. Life is what we each make of it, continually evolving…not a preordained script that we are born to partake in. The meaning and purpose of our lives comes from us, not from some imagined god. Each of us has a unique place in the universe that no other person can fill, what we do with our lives becomes part of the whole which makes a difference in the cosmos…it’s called the Butterfly Effect, meaning the whisper of a butterfly’s wings can make a huge change in the outcome of an event.
If I know that I will always be an integral part of the whole, then what gives meaning to this manifestation of my life at this point in time, is to leave 'a path of footprints' on this plane of existence, that will become part of my eternal journey and always be there to help me find my way home. The journey continues…