Looking for Dumbo

The fall of 1990 was a time of great change for me. I was on a serious spiritual quest. I quit smoking and began exercising and eating better. I daily practiced Zazen meditation to quiet my mind and expand my consciousness. I also began recording and analyzing my dreams and was intensely interested in synchronicity. I was reading many books about the Kabbalah, Gematria (Hebrew Numerology), Tree of Life, Tarot, and similar esoteric topics. I did not, at that time, consider myself a Christian in any way at all.

Then on the morning of November 24, 1990 I had a dream that changed my life. I found myself floating in a blank space half aware that I was dreaming when a woman with black hair in a red sweater suddenly appeared and said:

 
That was the entire dream. I awoke, wrote it down, and went back to sleep. I still have the journal in which I recorded and analyzed it. The first thing I did was to look up the symbolic meaning of the numbers 12 and 44 in Aleister Crowley’s Gematria book called 777 where I found that 44 was the value of the Hebrew word דם (DM, dawm) meaning blood. I immediately noticed that this correlated with the first two the consonants in DuMbo. This gave me the feeling that I had “received information” in the dream, since I had only begun to study Hebrew gematria a few weeks earlier and did not know that word or it’s numerical value.

I then looked up the product 528 = 12 x 44 and found that it was the sum of all the natural numbers from 1 to 32. Mathematicians call such numbers “triangular” because they count the number of dots in a triangular array. Kabbalists call them “Mystic Numbers” because the are supposed to “sum up” the mystical meaning of that number. Having this knowledge, I was astounded to find that the number given in my dream was the Mystic Number of the 32^nd Path on the Tree of Life that leads from Malkuth to Yesod, the foundation of spiritual consciousness. Furthermore, the 32^nd Path corresponds to the Universe Card of the Major Arcana in the Tarot and the final letter of the Hebrew alphabet Tav. Thus, I interpreted this information given in my dream to be something like the “Mystic Number of the Universe” or more simply, the “Key to the Universe” which is what I wrote in my journal though I had no understanding of what that really meant as yet.

As I continued my analysis, I began to notice subtle associations with other dreams I had recorded. The first big night of dreams happened on November 4^thwhen I dreamed that my boss, Sheri, “had a keyboard with over 400 sounds sampled.” This naturally linked to the numerical value of Tav (400) and the idea of a “key” board gave me a sense of a the 22 letters as “keys” to this spiritual reality I was discovering. I also felt there was a connection with a dream that I had on November 16:

I noted that one mile equals 5,280 feet, or ten times my dream number. I had a very strong intuition that these dreams were connected, so I began to pay even closer attention each night. And then on December 1 I had this very lucid dream (verbatim from my dream journal):

I spent a lot of time analyzing the elements of these dreams. I would look for puns, homophones, numerical values of the Hebrew words corresponding to the dream elements – anything and everything I could think of to try to make sense of it all. On December 4^thI wrote “In a Kabbalistic universe there is no throw-away information. Nothing is meaningless in a universe which manifests the mind of God.” So I analyzed everything and everything was numinous and the world felt like a vibrantly living semantic cosmos. Everything I encountered was glowing – like a living symbol that would release its secret if I meditated intently upon it. For example, on the morning of the dream, I noticed that it happened on 11/16 and 11 x 16 was half of 528. I was thinking about this the next evening when I went out to dinner at Ezell’s and found an entry form for a chance to win an Isuzu truck inside a flyer with the number 22 in a circle with wings atop a caduceus that seemed very significant. The drawing was on December 22. Here is what I wrote in my journal:

I share this to show that I was taking note of every detail. Everything was now in place for the “Big Event.” On December 22 I went to work as usual at the Gob Shoppe. Here is what I wrote in my journal:

I felt this was an extremely profound synchronicity because it involved a question of two or three dollars over a pill (pool?) box. I was thinking about this later at home and began to wonder what time the transaction happened. Here is what I wrote in my journal the next day:

The transaction happened at 5:28 PM on 12/22 and came to a total of $12.44 and it naturally connected with the dream about a master who wanted to play a game of pool (pill) for $2.00 or $3.00 dollars. And the sum of the multiplied dates for the Dumbo dream and this transaction was, of course, 11 x 24 + 12 x 22 = 528. Here is a picture of the actual receipt from my journal:

I was absolutely flabbergasted that all these elements from my dreams could come together like this. It left an indelible impression on my mind. But one thing was lacking. What does it all mean? It took me about a year to come to my first solid answer to that question.

Armed now with a solid conviction that I could find an answer I spent all my waking hours learning everything I could that might relate. I spent many hours in the bar with a beer, a Bible, and a calculator looking for patterns that might bring the answer to light. It was during this time that I discovered my first Biblical holographs and began to fall in love with the Old Testament. I even wondered if I were being led to convert to be a Jew. I had no real interest in the New Testament at that time. Finally, in July of 1991 I found the first puzzle piece that would give me the answer I was looking for. The Number 528 as the value of the word מפתח (maphte’ach, key) found in the book of the prophet Isaiah:

I was floored. Absolutely floored. Here I was, after seven months of study, looking at the literal confirmation of my intuition that the number 528 was some sort of “key” to the universe! But still, I didn’t understand how it functioned as a “key.” And I still did not understand the connection with the numbers 12 and 44. So I continued my search, and found this:

The actual Hebrew translated as “in the blood” is בדם הוא (b’dawm hu). It literally means “in his blood.” The Bet prefix means “in” and dawm means blood, and hu means “he” or “of him” depending on context. And the numerical values? They are hu = 12 and dm = 44. I had found the meaning of the key! It was “His Blood.” And look at the Hebrew: b’dawm hu is a simple metathesis of Dumbo! I knew I had found what I was looking for. But there was one more question. Whose blood are we talking about? I don’t have time now to detail the process of discovery, so I’ll just give you the result. The Number 6 is the Number of the Cosmos (Universe). Here is the name of he who holds its key:

Kυριος Iησους Xριστος (LORD JESUS CHRIST) = 3168 = 6 (Cosmos) x 528 (Key)

Man, this stuff still gives me the goose-bumps!

Now you can see why I became a fundamentalist. I had this knowledge before I discovered the Bible Wheel.